Thursday, September 16, 2010

Winter, January 1981, Boston - Lennon is Dead

The harsh winter winds whipped through an icy city that I had decided was the epicenter of the universe.

Anything.

Anything was better than home. John Lennon had just died and his music suddenly gripped me like the warm clutch of a lover's promise that first winter in Boston. He, and Bowie, and all that New Wave music sang to me of a life worth living . . . far from the one I left behind in my little lobster fishing town on Cape Cod.

Promises to his baby, promises to Yoko . . . these were all foreign things to someone who had never known love.

But still they pulled me. Called to me from radio airwaves and created cravings of . . . what? I didn't even know. But I felt embraced. Heard. Loved.

Of all the times to move to a new home . . . dead of winter. The worst one Boston had seen in years. I couldn't even afford the warmth of boots to cover my frozen feet as I waited for the T that was on strike and took hours to show up in absolutely frostbitten weather. Something pushed me beyond my comfort level.

I knew there was warmth and love and a life worth living there.

I stayed for ten years.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Inner Slate

Lately I find myself journaling virtually, within the matrix of my body.

Pen to paper feels too removed from felt experience.

The story unspools, with iPod set to shuffle . . . as unpredictable as life.

Each song, each asana, triggers an inner scribing of sadness, wonder and joy on an internal slate.

Shaken clean by savasana.