Friday, March 29, 2013

Once Felt, Never Forgotten: On the Road to Bhakti … a Pilgrimage to the Virgin of Guadalupe in Mexico City


“This your first pilgrimage?” I stage-whispered to a gal from my group. She giggled and nodded. After four hours of solemn shuffling alongside men carrying large framed images of the Virgin Mary lashed to their backs, my lapsed Catholic inner child was feeling mischievous. Monty Python mischievous.

In my 20 years of practicing yoga, I’d never understood why people undertook pilgrimages…but being someone who will try most anything once, I was willing to learn. Motivation arrived in the form of a 12/21/12 getaway. The annual Guadalupe pilgrimage was the first in a series of events led by Toltec teacher Sergio Magaña Ocelocoyotl (coyote jaguar) in preparation for the Solstice. “Devotional energy is the lightest, most refined energy on the planet,” he said. We were to absorb this blissful note in preparation for becoming spiritual warriors, or Quetzalcoatls, later at the pyramids. “This energy will help you to make the shift in your own vibration from the 5th to the 6th Sun.”

I first learned about this Sixth Sun from Sergio, who expertly bridges the modern world with that of his indigenous teachers and ancestors. There is no surprise that he was born with both Castilian and indigenous blood in his veins. He shares practices that align us with ancient, universal rhythms, which can evoke deep, positive change in our lives…if we do the work. He has been teaching in Mexico for over twelve years, and in the US and Europe since 2010. Sergio has learned from great masters in the Mexica lineage including Aztec Anubis, Xolotl (shadow dog) José Luis Chávez Martínez, keeper of the ancient Nahuatl wisdom; and Hugo Nahui, a gifted scholar on stellar events and their impact on our lives.

Winter Solstice of 2012 marked an official goodbye to an old way of being and ushered in the influence of the next “Sun” or era, the Sixth Sun. Each Era spans 6,625 years. While the Fifth Sun was an era of outer conquest and seeking wisdom and happiness in the world around us, the Sixth Sun ushers in an era of inner listening—of working with the wisdom within—and deepens until it is in full control on 12/21/2021.

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Before we set off for our evening trek, I’d fretted over what to bring. Traveling light was a priority.  Paranoid of pickpockets, I debated leaving my camera in the hotel safe as I stashed only enough money for taxi fare in my bra.

My roommate eyed me worriedly as she neatly laid out a matching TravelSmith outfit on her bed, “Did you know that at the 1954 Kumbh Mela pilgrimage in India, 500 people were killed in a stampede?”

“Um, no…,” I blurted. I hadn’t considered claustrophobia or crowd crushing until just then. Suddenly it was 1985…

I’d arrived at the Providence Civic Center for a Kool and the Gang concert, and stood with other earlybirds by the closed glass doors to the auditorium. The crowd swelled significantly as showtime neared. Suddenly, far from me, a single door opened. The throng surged, lifting me off my feet and pinning me like a bug against a glass wall. Panic and utter helplessness washed over me as the glass gave, but thankfully did not break…And then other doors opened and my primal fear subsided as I stumbled in with the herd to see the show.
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As we began our hike in Tlaltelolco—site of the Templo Mayor, one of the main Aztec temples—Sergio gave us each a pack of six black and six white stones. Over the course of our walk he instructed us to assign each rock various traumas we’d experienced in childhood or at each milestone in our life. These were our prayer beads to ponder and worry throughout the evening, as we considered the things that held us back in our lives. The stones would be offered at the basilica, our destination, and the Virgin would release from us the heavy energy associated with these traumas—mending the holes in our souls—in a simple but elegant sycretization of faiths.
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Hanging low and swollen in the sky, a vermillion Jupiter was the first of many celestial wonders that night—the  perfect lantern to light our way, as we hiked for seven miles from 7 p.m. to 3 a.m. on 12/12/12. It limned our passage to the ancient Temple of Tonantzin Coatlicue, Mother Earth and Goddess of Life and Death. The temple was destroyed by the Spanish and rebuilt into the original chapel for the Virgin of Guadalupe.

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“Don’t turn down anything people give you!” Sergio instructed.  “You’ll hurt their feelings, and these gifts are offered from the kindness of their hearts.” My first present was a card handed to me by a calm smiling man. This being my first boon, I felt excited as a kid who’d fished out the crackerjack prize. The card bore an image of the Virgin of Guadalupe on one side, and a prayer to her on the other.

Soon, however, my growling stomach reminded me that I hadn’t had dinner. With a pang, I noticed a young couple from our group to my left holding SANDWICHES. They seemed to be debating whether they dared eat them or not. I craned my neck left to right like a starving baby bird, but soon became distracted by a 40-something local man dragging a wooden box by a rope with a rapt look on his face. The regular appearance of men toting four foot crosses on their shoulderscomplete with grim Jesusalso took my mind off my tummy. It was lucky that I forgot about the treats so near and yet so far, because food was not to find its way to me that night. I would arrive at our destination in proper fasted form…

At one point my food radar caused me to be in a perplexing place. Without thinking, I’d accepted a very full cup of black coffee that…I realized a second later, I didn’t want. As I hurried to rejoin my group, the obsidian liquid sloshed dangerously close to the edge. The coffee giver had so enthusiastically proffered his gift, and with Sergio’s directive drumming through my head…how could I refuse? I debated being rude to the tradition… What would HAPPEN if someone threw away their boon?  I considered my options. Cups, wrappers, and all manifestations of trash were piled high on the sidewalk to my right and left. Dumping the liquid in the street simply wasn’t an option—I would’ve wetted many pilgrim toes...including mine. My San Francisco recycler mentality agonized over the spec of litter I’d be adding to the tonnage that lay strewn everywhere. I finally found a space on the sidewalk to set down the brimming cup, and bounded guiltily onward.
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Over time, the parade my group had merged with bottlenecked from a 20-shoulder-across street to a 5-across pedestrian walkway in the middle of an avenue. Diminutive police officers stood on bollards lining the thin causeway every 10 feet, providing a constant presence. The gateway to the Vegas-lit basilica complex allowed just three-shoulders-across entry. Once inside, we were reduced to a singular serpentine shuffle.

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Inside the compound, the press of devout seekers covered every square inch of pavement. I stepped carefully over the feet of family after family camped out on the steps of the church, clearly exhausted after their long trek from their home village (some had walked for months). Not a single baby cried among seven million pilgrims. My mind staggered with the enormity of that many hushed children…and where were the bathrooms?

A trust and gentleness pervaded as families slept atop blankets they’d placed on sidewalks, stairs and street corners….any place out of the immediate flow of foot traffic.

I soon realized my earlier paranoia of pickpockets, stampedes, and crowd crushing was totally unfounded, as all the men I passed, bumped into, or witnessed were peaceful, reverent, and deferential. I was never pushed or regarded suggestively the entire evening.

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We climbed up to the Temple of Tonantzin Coatlique, past Virgin dioramas one could pose by for pictures. At the top we were greeted by domed rooftops and breathtaking views of the snaking streets below feeding the devout into the basilica. Joining the rapt, upturned faces of the devout, I entered the chapel. A sweet, light energy filled the high-ceilinged edifice, which was tiled in blue and white and bursting with flowers. The circa 16th century statuary backed by suns, moons and stars—and especially the Virgin statue, sitting atop a crescent moon and containing complex indigenous spiritual symbolism that Sergio had explained to us—pleased my inner Pagan greatly.

I exited into the strobe-illuminated night to see fireworks create a number “7” in the sky…Aztec symbol of healing. With that auspicious omen, I tossed my stones over a low stone wall, beyond which was a grassy hillside—sending my prayers, and my traumas to the Mother’s healing. I descended the stairs.  At the base of the old Temple, I felt suddenly washed with a lightness and release. It reminded me of hucha mikuy, the Peruvian shamanic method of transforming heavy energy into light, refined energy. Or, if you like, the transubstantiation done with a chalice at either a pagan ritual or a Christian mass.

As we milled slowly around the main basilica yard in the out-stream, I followed many pilgrim arms pointing to the heavens and gasped.  Hovering low and large over the modern basilica, soundlessly flashing a green oval of lights, then a white one was something extremely nonordinary.  Occasionally the spectre darted with impossible speed to the right or left. It seemed to be studying this epicenter of human empathy for its uniqueness and beauty in stark contrast to all the other nastiness on the planet; hovering for the longest time over the basilica. I blinked and it was gone. “There are many OOF-ohs here tonight, eh?” Sergio laughed, pointing out additional UFOs for our wide-eyed entertainment as we waited our egalitarian turn to exit the compound.

My gaze traveled to the gold-framed, original tilma in the modern basilica—the cape of Juan Diego—to whom the Virgin had appeared, and with which he had carried the impossible Castillian roses at the Virgin’s request to the local church, to validate his vision. The image of Mary had remained on the cape when he shook the roses out. In 1951 photographers discovered a reflection in the Virgin’s eyes, which on magnification, revealed all 14 witnesses present when the tilma was first revealed to the padre in 1531, including a small family. Interestingly,  Hernán Cortés , the conquistador who overthrew the Aztec Empire in 1521, was from Extremadura, Spain, home to Our Lady of Guadalupe, Extremadura, one of three black madonnas in Spain. Was her well-timed Mexican appearance a political move or a miracle? The tilma has not been studied scientifically since 1982.
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Our return trek created a feeling of expansiveness as personal space once again emerged. The inbound crowd became threadier and younger, more exuberant; many of them high-fiving or waving to the tall men in our group who were risking loss of blood to limbs by maintaining upraised arms to signal our group’s edges, and not lose any weary trekkers.
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Back at the hotel room, my head hit the pillow as heavy as an obsidian tecpatl blade. After sleeping in quite late, I cracked open the window and gazed out into a smudgy, sunny sky, unrolled my yoga mat and flicked on some kirtan music. Suddenly, just a few notes into the first song, exquisite ecstasy flooded my body like a megadose of endorphins… And I got it… Why people take pilgrimages. Why they immerse themselves in bhakti…in that devotional bliss. That same vibration can be triggered so easily afterwards! I marveled at how sweet it felt. My heart expanded as if an inner sun were shining within me. Just like those pictures of Jesus I’d seen but not understood as a child. Or like the Sufi symbol of the winged heart. Could I perhaps be ready to embrace the 6th Sun now? To become a spiritual warrior…a Quetzalcoatl? The flowering serpent—symbol of heaven and earth combined. I began my Ujayyi breathing and let the feeling deepen as I stretched into my first pose…and felt like I’d got what I came to Mexico for.

Bhakti…Once felt, it is never forgotton.

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